Embracing Balance: Integrating the Divine Feminine and Masculine in My Functional Patterns Journey
In the dance of feminine and masculine, I found the strength to move forward with grace and purpose.
Discovering the Body's Hidden Language
I arrived at my weekly Functional Patterns (FP) training session with Rashawn, ready to dive into another session of mind-body connection.
As always, Rashawn guided me through a series of aligned postures that activated parts of my body I barely knew existed.
Each movement called for total focus and a deep awareness of my physical form, an awareness I hadn’t tapped into before starting FP.
In this particular session, Rashawn noticed my right side struggling to stay in alignment.
With a gentle, yet resolute touch on my right quad, she remarked, “This part of you doesn’t want to move forward.”
The moment her hand touched my leg, I felt a rush of emotion well up inside me.
There I was, in a gym, with a personal trainer, and suddenly I was crying as if I were on a healer’s table.
I took a deep breath and acknowledged out loud, “Something here needs healing.”
The Right Side: Awakening Masculine Energy
The moment was surreal, as if I were witnessing the exchange from outside my body.
I mentioned to Rashawn that my right leg has always felt different, particularly when I descend stairs.
I’ve often felt the need to protect myself, taking extra care when stepping down on that side.
As I grappled with these feelings, Rashawn coached me through engaging my right quad, showing me how to support my body’s movement.
“I just don’t know how to relate to this part,” I confessed, tears streaming down my face, even as others moved around the gym.
It was as though my body had waited for this perfect moment to reveal something I’d hidden deep within.
After the session, I couldn’t shake the thought of the right side of my body symbolizing masculine energy.
I knew I wasn’t going to Google it… but curiosity got the best of me.
Sure enough, the right side of the body is linked to masculine energy.
I laughed out loud. Of course it was!
I had just spent the past year fully immersed in my Divine Feminine.
I poured my energy into creative projects like rebranding my website, allowing space for everything to unfold slowly and organically.
I took marketing courses that encouraged me to listen to my intuition rather than charge forward.
And now, here I was, feeling hesitant, yet fully aware it was time to step into the next chapter—a chapter that demanded I put myself out there, to act, to embrace my masculine side.
Divine Feminine Meets Divine Masculine
This realization was both profound and challenging.
I began to understand that I hadn’t yet found a way to relate to masculine energy in a way that honored my Divine Feminine essence.
For so long, masculine energy in my world had looked like aggression, control, and dominance—all things I resisted.
But the truth was, I needed that energy now, perhaps not in the way I’d known it, but in a way that could work in harmony with the feminine energy I’d come to trust and embody.
Finding Strength in Vitality
In the weeks following that session, I found myself at a crossroads again and again.
There were moments where I wanted nothing more than to hide under the covers, skip my sessions, and retreat into the comfort of what I knew.
But each time, a quiet voice within urged me to keep moving.
So I went, every day, tuning in to my body, listening to what it needed.
I gave myself permission to rest when necessary but discovered a newfound strength in showing up even when it was hard.
A New Path Forward
It was an eye-opening experience to see how the masculine energy could support my feminine essence, allowing me to take action while remaining in touch with my heart.
For the first time, I glimpsed a new version of myself, one where I could move forward confidently, yet with grace.
I found that integrating these energies wasn’t about abandoning one for the other but about blending them, honoring both aspects of my being.
This journey is still unfolding.
I continue to notice where I may have shielded myself from my own masculine power.
I’ve become curious about how this integration will manifest in other areas of my life.
Perhaps I’ll discover that, like so many things, it’s all about balance, about finding harmony in the contrast.
And so, I keep showing up, embracing each step forward, ready to explore how both energies can dance together to create a fuller, more aligned version of myself.
With Love,
